When I first started publicly blogging, it became this outlet for me where I could play a social butterfly. A nice change for me since I can be so painfully shy in real life. In reality, I am the girl who drives herself crazy dissecting everything she says and does in social situations. But online I could talk to people I didn't even know, spin everyday events into funny tales, and know that over 100+ people cared about what I have to say. And that felt good, really good, for a while. In the last couple of months, I started feeling obligated to blog. I felt guilty when I went more than a few days without posting, and I would worry if I felt an entry wasn't up to par. I would worry about what I was going to blog next. I also got caught up in my stats, comments, and followers. Which is a good way to suck the fun out of blogging all together. It all felt very suffocating. Although I have to admit I put myself in that position, but I can be smart enough to take myself out of it.
So although going private (or in this case relocating) was a totally essential move for my future career. It also feels like a good move for me. It feels like I can kind of relax a little bit. Get back to what blogging should be about for a 24 year old lady. If I don't blog for a few days-who cares. If I simply want to write a little bit about what is going on in my head, instead of trying to be amusing-I can. I will blog about my "feelings" or whatever else comes to mind. I will still be my funny self-yes. But I'm going to use blogging like I always wanted to. I'm not going to worry about followers/comments and just keep up with the bloggers I've come to adore.
So here's to a whole new ride. *Cheers*
2 comments:
Welcome to anonymity! Enjoy it chica :-)
I'm proud of you, for continuing on this journey even though it's rough, and the whole private thing is different for you! I'm so excited to watch this next chapter in your life unfold!
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